suicidal diary

dear diary,
today i saw my best friend today
and he was doing fine
until he says i want to kill myself.
dear diary what am i to do
i cant take it
sitting on my bed crying
so much my eyes burn
i sit and yearn for the pain to stop
wanting to run away 
escaping the lies
the pain i feel inside
suicides the solution
i think not
rolling on to my stomach 
wishing the tears would stop
alone in my room wanting to comfort
wanting the comfort to come to me
dear diary'
what do i do?
i sit on my bed
lay on my back
close the diary
and slowly close my eyes
letting the pain to consume me
pulling the diary to my chest
falling into a neverending sleep 
dear diary,
i hate to go
but goodbye diary
i love you
love suicide