Sometimes.....

Sometimes I wonder, is it easier to keep this going?
Keep this secret locked deep inside,
Only I know

Sometimes I am tired, tired of lying,
Tired of hiding
Tired of pretending

Sometime I think, could I have been better?
Could I be something better?
Does it have to be this way forever?

Sometimes I wonder,
Wonder why I decided to uncover the pain
The pain of knowing Ill never be....