Numb Fractures

No one can hurt me
Is it insensitivity?
I've grown to feel nothing
Maybe it's all those years of silent secrecy
I can live like this for an eternity
If only the emptiness didn't tear a hole in me
Or the bright sunlight to throw light on my sins to see
Me for what I've grown to be
A masked facade, a dancing ballerina with broken feet
But wounds can heal, and I can get back on my feet
To dance again and walk through this grey eternity
Till I find the red monster lurking in me
Fighting to get out, demanding to be free
And that's the only time I feel something
It's real, it's who I am, it's what I'm supposed to be
A monster in the shadows, growling with sharp teeth
Then I'm back again, in my numb reality
Invincible in the stone walls I forged and built
Guarding my regrets and tears I don't set free
to know I can get hurt, I too can wound and weep