things change in one second~

There had been screams for hours. It seemed to be that her pain would not end any time soon. So many months ago it was that she gave us all the wonderfully scary news that changed everyone's lives.
                                                       
"Hang in there sweetie, just a little bit more" cheerful words from everyone to give her strength. I was the only one to not cheer up for her. Sitting in the corner of that white room that had more people than it could bear.

Thinking back to all the nights I held her in my arms telling her not to surrender her life, giving-or at least trying to- hope that life would smile her way soon. She was hardly responsible for herself and she could barely do that and now, she'd have to be responsible for someone else. Someone so much more fragile with an everyday reminder of why she Hated her life in the first place.


Something took me out of my own thoughts.  She screamed my name; I hated my name right now, but like always I attended to her request for my presence. I held her hand that immediately started to squeeze mine so hard I could already feel the circulation cutting.

"I thought you had left me here with all these morons." Her pessimism was unbearably fitting for both our feelings. Everyone in the room had been in charge of her keeping this burden, but it was me who stayed after hours to make sure she ate and slept and most importantly,  stayed alive.

"I know I can be an asshole. But I'd want to kill myself too if I had so many pushers behind me, but I'm Beside you, so you know what you gotta do. I'll be here. Always." We whispered to each other as everyone was screaming now.

She screamed once more a groan that made even my throat hurt. Everything seemed to stop and freeze in time then. No screaming, no pessimism,  no fear and no pushing. It was as if the room lit up and there was only one thing in the room. A tiny body that as soon as it showed itself started crying a lively cry.

It was all wrinkly and full of blood and tears.  But it seemed to be the most precious being of the whole wide world. And I forgot about Melina for a moment,  feeling guilty to have left her alone at the worst part of this. I looked back at her and saw myself in her deep black eyes. She saw my expression and smiled like she never Had before. And that's when I knew.

Everything was going to be ok. she would be ok. One second is all it took. And not only one life changed. My life changed, I could feel it. But her life; she seemed to have been brought back to life through this little fragile life she had given birth to.