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My Unfair Universe

My Unfair Universe

To love or not to love.
I twist the quote of shake spear.
Knowing fully that you aren't mine,
I still want you beside me,
life is so unfair.

Its not justice to my mind,
that my heart skips a beat.
You're heart being so far,
so close,
yet too cold to feel.

You're breaking into pieces,
yet I'm not allowed to love them.
Their not mine to love,
even though I have the strength
to fix them.

The fact that I'm the one you trust
with such secrets.
yet not trusted enough to help you
out from the ashes,
has me crying myself to a fitful sleep,
where even in my dreams,
I continue to weep.

Why am I the one, to hurt along with you?
why do I stay knowing you're pain,
pains me too?
Masochist I am not,
and this pain is not the kind I like.
It's the type,
that attacks from the inside, slowly it rots.

Every time I get the chance,
it slips right through my fingers.
The possibility teases me,
as the ache continues
to linger.

I just don't understand why I'm the one,
to be ridden by such unjust love.
Will I ever want this dreadful feeling
to be disposed of?
Do I wait more...
for any possibility of this to be requited?
Or wait in vain, till the veil enclosing
your sight has fallen?

I ask the Gods and Goddesses of
such emotion,
Have pity on me!
I'm breaking as he breaks,
I wake as he wakes,
just slightly dying a little
when he greets me.

I don't want to loose my way
by going in too deep.
Do I at least get to plan my leap?
I'm working too hard for both of us.
Oh please, I beg, have mercy on me,
my unfair universe.