Why Can't I Hate You?

Why the fuck can't I hate you?
It seems so easy for you to not pay attention to me.
What the hell am I supposed to do?
Every thought brings numbing pain, but, I still love you.

The wounds have stopped bleeding but they will never heal.
Open doors to your open arms, but only in my dreams.
This war going on inside is leaving me bare.
Stripped of every emotion and I still can't hate you.

Left alone and losing sanity, these dreams become nightmares.
All that you meant to me is forever haunting me.
When tears turn to blood, it's hard to believe.
This whole time my enemy was my lover.

Taken in by the shadows, I'm born again.
Remembering only one thing; You still have my heart.
For eternity my soul is damned to this hallow shell.
A corpse getting colder, trudging through emptiness.

There's no longer time to save you and I.
That was the last chance before you said goodbye.
Waking up to a world so unknown, it doesn't seem real.
You moved on and I stayed back hopelessly loving you.

Because I can't keep from wondering, do you still love me too?