Once you was my drug.

 
You was the drug i used to abuse myself
You caused the rocks in my pipe to glowed hot with passion
You was the purple haze of heavenly scent I wished enshroud myself with and inhale
You was the crack i wished to hit
You was the smack i wished to feel coursing through my body
My heartbeat quickened faster than amphetamine
I felt giddy, like a drunk around you
You was my ecstasy to be swallowed at the love in

On the day you gave me verdict
of the end of our calls and letters-exchange
I was suffocating of your imperishable injustice
I wanted nothing, i tried to run away
but for the flight was nowhere a way
here and there, just everywhere
you was only alone in my little world
cruel like snake and round like god

so primordial was my submission to you
that i have grieved immensely on the lot of yours
edags,
any word which fell from your toxic mouth was like holy water to me
tempted me to dive in beneath the bottom. &
i sunk in excruciating despair  but you had still mesmerized my frozen core


And who are you now to me?
Do you really think you're an ultimate Ratchet?
Please Advise!..

My addiction to you faded away
you are no longer my Mr.Gray
no more you are my lovely Demetra
nor you are any long my Mama Wolf..
Neither you are kinda of that brilliant inferno
(even if you're so proud of keeping yourself for nigger of necrorealism)

you seem be just a skint on credit of any sense, Yah
i mean that with every remaining inch of my person

but who i am to say that, with a need so large, bound in a body so small, so misappropriated as i?

however i reminisce how once you was my drug
and still write you postcard..
despite my will to do it is merely stagnant

Play your silence like an accordion
Lie me, bribe me to vanish from your sight
Try hard to cheat karma
Enjoy the basking
before it gets dark

Happy Birthday! Really! Sugar high!