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Why me
Why me:
Just when I thought I did it, I managed to push you away, you didn’t go, and you stayed
You’re my dream in a million ways, you fill my life with all the right things, and you’re beyond me
I distract you, I make it hard to do all the things you need to, I crave your time, I can’t get enough of you
You’re the boss and your people need you, you’re so important to everyone
I don’t want to hold you down, so I feel like I want to run
I push in so many ways and you never budge why, why, why, why, why, why, why, I cannot understand
Why me I am no one special, I am not even that pretty,
H.G you have me on my worn down knees, but this time I am not praying
I am begging you to tell me why, why me, how could a girl like me deserve you?
I do not understand, I don’t get this thing, I run, I push, I hide but your there always there, here in my life
I cannot scare you away, you seen the darkest parts of me, I shown you everything, and yet
H.G I am scared this thing is getting out of my control and I am slipping into an unknown zone
I have not been here before, you said neither have you, how are you so calm, I am going crazy
I just cannot understand this, how is it you love me, don’t you get it, I am not the loving kind
I conquer and destroy anything in my path, I save my bombs for last, and I destroy, and make new paths
Why would you want to love a monster like that?
I am not what a women should be, can’t you understand this about me
I was born in the wrong time; I should be in a barbarian’s life, and just live to fight, just survive
I am not this woman of today, I am not feminine and dressy, I am a fighter and I will fight to the grave
H.G please, Please, I cannot understand, why me
I am know where near your skill or education I am tattooed all over my legs, I am not done yet, I will
Have my back and legs covered in stories of so many things, all made in ink
I am a street girl from the bottoms, and I done some things I am not proud of, I am not special why, why,
I cannot understand why you chose me, H.G I am trying to explain, you should be running away from me
There are times I am week and I am in pain and those times I can’t stand to have anyone near me
There or times I am mouthy and moody, there will be times I will fight someone for disrespecting
You, a girl like me, just is not safe
Yes I see you love my passion, and my wild ways, but H.G I will never change, I am me and this is the
Thing
You say I make you feel safe when you sleep
Is it because I stay up all night and watch you dream
I just adore your beautiful breaths, and the sound of your heart beat
Is it because I love to hold you in my arms and kiss you deeply
It’s because of all that you do for the people who need you, and you’re selfless way
Is it because of the sex I give to you?
It’s because of all the men I ever knew; you’re the only one of a select few
That deserves to fly from reality for real with me
Is it because I can be a slut, without sleeping around for you
It’s because you touched me H.G, you got inside me, with all your ways that make you great
Putting all this aside, I still don’t understand, any woman can do these things, I am not special
I am just me, a slave unto myself, and who I feel I must be
I just walk the forest in my bare fee, and I sit and watch the moon watch me, I swim naked and I love being free, I play hard and yes I will cheat to win, it’s just the art of the battle I am in, I love life and I can’t not care when someone needs me, I talk the truth no matter who is listening, I say things off the wall and that no one was thinking, I laugh to loud everyone hears me laughing, I never met a stranger everyone is friend worthy, I try all things from all countries, I ask question to learn about where there coming from, and I respect all religions because who has the right to judge someone, I keep an open mind because there’s a chance I could be wrong, I live my life like a star dimming, I will die one day I want to say I lived, and I felt pain but love is something I never intended to say, and I can’t understand how and why you love me
Just when I thought I did it, I managed to push you away, you didn’t go, and you stayed
You’re my dream in a million ways, you fill my life with all the right things, and you’re beyond me
I distract you, I make it hard to do all the things you need to, I crave your time, I can’t get enough of you
You’re the boss and your people need you, you’re so important to everyone
I don’t want to hold you down, so I feel like I want to run
I push in so many ways and you never budge why, why, why, why, why, why, why, I cannot understand
Why me I am no one special, I am not even that pretty,
Seascape
Just when I thought I did it, I managed to push you away, you didn’t go, and you stayed
You’re my dream in a million ways, you fill my life with all the right things, and you’re beyond me
I distract you, I make it hard to do all the things you need to, I crave your time, I can’t get enough of you
You’re the boss and your people need you, you’re so important to everyone
I don’t want to hold you down, so I feel like I want to run
I push in so many ways and you never budge why, why, why, why, why, why, why, I cannot understand
Why me I am no one special, I am not even that pretty,
H.G you have me on my worn down knees, but this time I am not praying
I am begging you to tell me why, why me, how could a girl like me deserve you?
I do not understand, I don’t get this thing, I run, I push, I hide but your there always there, here in my life
I cannot scare you away, you seen the darkest parts of me, I shown you everything, and yet
H.G I am scared this thing is getting out of my control and I am slipping into an unknown zone
I have not been here before, you said neither have you, how are you so calm, I am going crazy
I just cannot understand this, how is it you love me, don’t you get it, I am not the loving kind
I conquer and destroy anything in my path, I save my bombs for last, and I destroy, and make new paths
Why would you want to love a monster like that?
I am not what a women should be, can’t you understand this about me
I was born in the wrong time; I should be in a barbarian’s life, and just live to fight, just survive
I am not this woman of today, I am not feminine and dressy, I am a fighter and I will fight to the grave
H.G please, Please, I cannot understand, why me
I am know where near your skill or education I am tattooed all over my legs, I am not done yet, I will
Have my back and legs covered in stories of so many things, all made in ink
I am a street girl from the bottoms, and I done some things I am not proud of, I am not special why, why,
I cannot understand why you chose me, H.G I am trying to explain, you should be running away from me
There are times I am week and I am in pain and those times I can’t stand to have anyone near me
There or times I am mouthy and moody, there will be times I will fight someone for disrespecting
You, a girl like me, just is not safe
Yes I see you love my passion, and my wild ways, but H.G I will never change, I am me and this is the
Thing
You say I make you feel safe when you sleep
Is it because I stay up all night and watch you dream
I just adore your beautiful breaths, and the sound of your heart beat
Is it because I love to hold you in my arms and kiss you deeply
It’s because of all that you do for the people who need you, and you’re selfless way
Is it because of the sex I give to you?
It’s because of all the men I ever knew; you’re the only one of a select few
That deserves to fly from reality for real with me
Is it because I can be a slut, without sleeping around for you
It’s because you touched me H.G, you got inside me, with all your ways that make you great
Putting all this aside, I still don’t understand, any woman can do these things, I am not special
I am just me, a slave unto myself, and who I feel I must be
I just walk the forest in my bare fee, and I sit and watch the moon watch me, I swim naked and I love being free, I play hard and yes I will cheat to win, it’s just the art of the battle I am in, I love life and I can’t not care when someone needs me, I talk the truth no matter who is listening, I say things off the wall and that no one was thinking, I laugh to loud everyone hears me laughing, I never met a stranger everyone is friend worthy, I try all things from all countries, I ask question to learn about where there coming from, and I respect all religions because who has the right to judge someone, I keep an open mind because there’s a chance I could be wrong, I live my life like a star dimming, I will die one day I want to say I lived, and I felt pain but love is something I never intended to say, and I can’t understand how and why you love me
Just when I thought I did it, I managed to push you away, you didn’t go, and you stayed
You’re my dream in a million ways, you fill my life with all the right things, and you’re beyond me
I distract you, I make it hard to do all the things you need to, I crave your time, I can’t get enough of you
You’re the boss and your people need you, you’re so important to everyone
I don’t want to hold you down, so I feel like I want to run
I push in so many ways and you never budge why, why, why, why, why, why, why, I cannot understand
Why me I am no one special, I am not even that pretty,
Seascape
Published 9th Jul 2014
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