Broken Became The Norm

when I was a little child
how I ran so very wild

slowly they began to break me down
first was the reasons only to frown

then the pain began; so much death all at one time
for so many loved one to die all at once should be a universe crime

I became the emotional punching bag causing my heart to bleed
pain was the rain and hatred the single seed

so when I was a teen
I became so very, very mean

and right before I became an adult
everything came to a startling halt

torn between two worlds and more
torn between being the good girl and being the "whore"

people around town noticed how guys noticed me
it was something i chose not to see

for in my mind I was broken and ugly inside
though it was something I tried my best to hide

some saw through the mask of anger and hate
and falling in love more then once was to be my fate

I was doomed from the start
with a love starved heart

that people chose to use
and chose to abuse

love is better then hate
though the two are intertwined in fate

like wire twisted all together
it's hard to determine the feelings in bad weather

don't judge me for you don't know how much pain I've known
and don't hate me when anger instead of understanding is shown

a little love is all I need
for me to want to heed