love to Collette

To day i stoped... And began to think... This world is over.... There is no more to this life.... This book is now over... The last chaper in the book of life.... And when i saw this a hevy shadow fell over me.... I cant think.... I cant see nor feel.... My anxity rushed in my hed and then i could not live.... Today my be lost.... This year is over.... I know i am a dead man.... All hope is lost..... I can not get out... and now all i can say is good by my life... I now i wont die just yet but am sorry.... I will die.... In less then one year pass.... Hold he my love and tell me you love me.... Yes at this very moment im drunk but this is the only way i can come to terms to my fate.... Only way i can exept my death.... I know i sed i will see you some day.... But now i can see this cant happen.... But i now that some day i can holdbyoy in heven.... Be strong and remember me.... My love im sorry