I want to be high all the time

I do it because it's an escape for me
I do it because the first phase makes me feel adventurous
I do it because in those moments I feel alive
I do it because it buries my sorrow and my shame
It buries all my guilt and locks it away
I still feel it there, but when I inhale it I forget them
You laugh and laugh and laugh again not knowing exactly why
Connections seem shapeless and you forget it standing in the corner
Exhaling it in a cough until it's all bright
Paranoia sinks in and it's like you're about to die
Then all you feel is just your high