Addiction

If you asked me to explain I don't think I could
it keeps me busy, keeps me sane, keeps me distracted
but the truth is that it's tearing me apart inside
and until now I never even noticed
it might seem harmless and simple but it's a dangerous trap that I have fallen into

Maybe it's denial that's keeping me caught up
stuck in this neverending circle
sleepless nights and senseless worry
maybe it could all be set free
if it wasn't for this addiction
and I wonder if I'll ever break the spell
long enough to remember what freedom is
and be me again

However long it takes I know things have to change
though it may be harder than I thought
this time I need to disconnect and take a breath
until I'm no longer so worn out
it may be fine for some people but I know
this isn't good for me at all

Maybe it's denial that's keeping me caught up
stuck in this neverending circle
sleepless nights and senseless worry
maybe it could all be set free
if it wasn't for this addiction
and I wonder if I'll ever break the spell
long enough to remember what freedom is
and be me again