LO / VE

How can one destroy their own feelings inside their soul towards someone so quickly.  This creates an emptiness inside the ones that still have true love and have totally forgot how to refill.  Once they're gone that hole gets bigger and your heart falls out and gets cut in half with the most painful knife anyone could imagine.  Where do you go from here?  How does one even attempt to pick up the pieces after that much time of pure love.  The trust for the opposite sex disapears completely.  Your foundation tumbles over, no matter how strong it was built up in the past. This pain makes your brain focus on negatives, no matter what.  You can avoid the downs for awhile by removing yourself, but like the turtle and the hare, the turtle eventually catches up and wins. Now I truely understand what pain is.  It's not getting the shit kicked out of you, its not sitting in jail, it's not being bullied, It's getting your heart completely broken and you know it, once you realize there is nothing you can do about it anymore.  That person stole your heart, broken vows, broken words, Just plain BROKEN.  That's where I am at.  I'm broken without any idea of how to repair.  Feelings of my life may be over, and I wasted so much time on something that could never be.  How are you supposed to know at the beginning when there aren't any signs?  You are just trusting your heart with someone, when really you end up turning into the lab rat.
Your kids get yanked out of their home along with your loved one and your heart.  More EMPTINESS.  Sure I can visit, but that is still a BROKEN way to raise a family.  All you can do is believe in your own thoughts that you think are the best for everyone, then accept that NONE of those opinions mean anything anymore.  COPE.  How does one cope after this?  Can they really cope, or are you just fooling yourself?  I can answer that question plain as day.    


Signed,
The Broken