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Depression 2.0
Fighting to contain myself
my heart beats fast
I am angry and hateful
What a terrible contrast.
My zen is gone. I want to scream
So angry...
I wish it were easier to be mean
Angry tears drip from my eyes
I cannot stand here
and battle my own lies.
...
...
My skin crawls
its been months since I've faced it
But it drags me down demanding a payment
Just yesterday I was sorta okay..
Now my mind is slipping back into Decay!
.. I feel world war three going on in my head
different faces with their voices ringing like shots fired
Slicing through the air they stab so painfully
Hitting their mark with such accuracy..
..
Fighting to ignore this pain
This itch so deep its going to drive me insane..
The blade sits just inches away..
Can I fight this disease for just one more day?
..
...My fingers twitch my arm aches
I plead with myself...
I lie awake..
Turn off the lights.. I toss and turn
wishing for a moment..
to feel that familiar burn.
Closing my eyes
I force the sleep..
Not succumbing tonight to my own defeat.
my heart beats fast
I am angry and hateful
What a terrible contrast.
My zen is gone. I want to scream
So angry...
I wish it were easier to be mean
Angry tears drip from my eyes
I cannot stand here
and battle my own lies.
...
...
My skin crawls
its been months since I've faced it
But it drags me down demanding a payment
Just yesterday I was sorta okay..
Now my mind is slipping back into Decay!
.. I feel world war three going on in my head
different faces with their voices ringing like shots fired
Slicing through the air they stab so painfully
Hitting their mark with such accuracy..
..
Fighting to ignore this pain
This itch so deep its going to drive me insane..
The blade sits just inches away..
Can I fight this disease for just one more day?
..
...My fingers twitch my arm aches
I plead with myself...
I lie awake..
Turn off the lights.. I toss and turn
wishing for a moment..
to feel that familiar burn.
Closing my eyes
I force the sleep..
Not succumbing tonight to my own defeat.
Published 26th May 2014
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