Closet Full Of Secrets

  Closet full of secrets...we all have them. Not meaning to the lies and secrets just pile up and get pushed into the closet. Thing is would your secret kill the soul of the one you love? Mine would. Every night I lay beside him though another is on my mind... I love the man beside me, though my memories haunt me as soon as the darkness rolls in. I want to see this other man in my mind to scream at the top of my lungs and tell him to be gone. To let me live in peace with my love. Yet the memories still stay like a grave yet to be covered. Try as I might I can't fight it. I want...no I need the anwsers to move on. How am I suppose to find them? Atleast not without hurting the man by my side now... Do I hurt my love, or suffer till I finally find my release? The closet seems ready to burst more everyday. The secrets ready to spill and hurt all that stands around me...I can not and will not hurt him, not now not ever.
        No matter the pain in my heart I have to keep the closet door shut. Nothing can escape it. As I turn from the door key in hand a hint of a smile plays across my lips for I know the choice I have made is the right one. Yes the memories are still their behind the door, but with this man beside me..my true love I can conquer all..just as long as the door and its secrets remain shut away.