Never ending..

Countless thoughts are
running through my head
but I can never get
it all out right..
Like the 100 times
I've wished I was dead
and the 200 times
I've convinced myself
that even the devil
couldn't handle my debt.
I've handed out too
much forgiveness
Trusted too many people
gave too many the title
of lover or friend..
I've lost my sanity
in each of their eyes
countless nightmares
their voices screaming
every lie I've ever heard
and it always ends with her
I handed her my damaged
heart and for years she
fixed and patched the wounds
little did I know
she only did it for herself
gained my trust
turned my mind on itself
I'm stuck with the shreds
of the war she commenced
and my lungs are to weak
to yell for help
somebody save me
she's chained me down
and trapped me in
her own personal hell....