Dying to be me

 Dying to be me

Searching
I've been searching
Searching for so long
For true meaning in my life
Searching and searching
Thru this odyssey of mine
Paved path carved by time

Lifestyle seeks new residence
O fortuna, velut luna
Find my soul deep within my haze
I'm not just a phase

Spirit transforming
Flower evolving
Into someone beautiful
Im beautiful in everyway
Someone I can love
Man in the mirror
Staring deep inside

I'm more than what's on the outside
Can't you see, dying to be me
Liberating self from emptiness
Someone to love me for who I am
Free me from loneliness and pain, to breathe again

Yet I find,  dying inside
Flowers in a vase of white
Dying, dying to be me
Demeaning eyes scrutinize whats inside
If I can't be me
I'm just better off dead

Hiding underneath my skin
Running away like I always do
Skeletons in my closet
Long to be free
Coming out, just wanna be me

Lavender paints my skies
A secret hidden behind my eyes
Wallpaper skin bleeds soft pink
All the way down to my pretty feet
Candy coated sugar toes
This is who I am
Blossoms in a vase

Just a twinkle in the night
Hung jewel wishing upon a fallen star
I have fallen, fallen hard
Watercolors smear
Black lashes, mascara above my eyes
Tears run black
Stream down my cheecks
Tracing my pain
Tired of running
Hiding myself
If I can't be me
I'm just better off dead

-ADuarte