I've made a decision.

It's the turning point in the road,
I want to take the path that sheds the biggest load.
Right or wrong what would I know?
This is my last chance to blow.
I'm petrified of happiness but exasperated of sadness,
All I know is that the end of my heartbeat will also end this madness.
I care about nobody, nor myself,
I don't want to be a burden to anyone else.
A knife, a gun, a jump, a fall,
Anything to end it all.