I   HATE   MYSELF

i hate myself and my life.
where the fuck did i put that butchers knife?
this life i live makes me sick.
hand me a gun i'll pull tha trigger quick.
it's all a bunch of fuckin' bullshit.
this is just too much pressure for me to deal wit.
can't have any kids so sex ain't a big deal.
ya think i'm kiddin' bitch,i'm for fuckin' real.
this world is a big fuckin' joke.
damn,i can already smell tha gun smoke.
the smell of torn flesh it makes me choke.
whut tha fuck is a cracka like me to do.
i say a cracka like me in this life is through.
i know i ain't fully mature but that's just me.
i know you hate me cuz' of my split personality.
my conflicting personalities is whut gets me in trouble.
alwayz say "i don't give a fuck" those words gets me in trouble.
everyone i know is either dead or in jail.
and if i don't change my wayz soon i'm gonna end up in hell.
i am so sad,so angry.
i try not to be bad but no one will help me.
my mind is gone,my reason is gone.
my life of mental depression is a story that is sooo long.
"i hate myself"

everyday i deal wit the same ol' shit.
everyday i fuck the same ol' bitch.
that's life and i have to deal wit it.
fuck all that shit i light up a jay and take many a long hit.
numb my senses,numb my brain.
hear my words, they'll drive ya insane.
day in and day out i cry many a tear.
day in and day out death i'll never fear.
i'm fat and ugly,fat and ugly.
nobody on this earth will hug and love me.
my mentality is very poisonous.
as long as i'm breathin' there ain't no stoppin' this.
i am so very poor,i sleep on a concrete floor.
i sell my belongings so i can purchase a bottle of liquor from the corner store.
i don't have anything in control.
i'm a pervert as well as an asshole.
how many times can i say i feel blue.
i don't count i just do whut i gotta do.
society expects alot outta me but with society.
i can't fuckin' deal wit so fuck it ya see.
i'm losin' oh shit i've lost my mind.
i feel the twist in my heart hear my teeth grind.
"i hate myself"

put me in chains lock me up.
take out my brain i don't give a fuck.
i can't seem to do anything right.
all i wanna do is die tonite.
i can't even make love cuz' i get no love.
as a kid i didn't even get a hug.
i hate this,i hate this.
my life and all it's shit.
why me why me?
god please take me outta this world make me d.i.e.
i'm oppressed,i'm depressed wit my own death i'm so obsessed.
whut i think of myself is far by less i'm tired of life and all it's stress.
if i should blow out my brains that would be a big fuckin' mess.
my sorry ass is gonna die fast.
my sorry ass in this world i won't last.
i miss my loved ones who have gone to the heavens above.
i wish i was with them so i could feel love.
while i'm down here on earth i feel hate.
a bunch of fucking bullshit.
i just all day masturbate and myself i hit.
"i hate myself".