ME

I HAVE MY DREAMS MY HEART DESIRES.
THE PASSION I FEEL BURNS RED LIKE AN OUTTA CONTROL FIRE.
MY LOOK'S ARE VERY DECEIVING AND THAT IS SO TRUE.
ASK THOSE THAT KNOW ME NOW WHAT THEY THOUGHT BEFORE GETTING TO KNOW ME,SOME THOUGHT I WAS A GANGSTA THUG.
THEY THOUGHT I WAS THE TYPE THAT WAS QUICK TO BUST OFF SLUG'S.
ONCE THEY WARMED UP TO MY SWEET,CARING WAY'S.
THAT I WAS FAR FROM BEING A RUTHLESS,COLD HEARTED,SON-OF-A-BITCH.
I LIVE A LIFE OF SECLUSION AWAY FROM DANGER,AWAY FROM CONFRONTATIONS.

I'M THE QUIET GUY STANDING ALONE, TO AVOID PHYSICAL & MENTAL DEVASTATIONS.
THOSE THAT KNOW ME,SAY I'M A TEDDY BEAR,THAT I HAVE A SIDE OF ME THAT'S ALL SO SCARED.
THAT MAY VERY WELL BE THE TRUTH,BUT THE PAIN,HURT,MENTAL SCARS I HAVE,TO LET OTHERS SEE I DON'T DARE.
THERE IS LOVE INSIDE THIS BODY OF MINE AND IT'S HARD TO SHOW IT.
I JUST DON'T WANNA HURT NO MORE,SO I STAY TO MYSELF ALONE IN MY PRIVATE PIT.
IF ANYONE OUT THERE CAN FEEL WHERE I'M COMING FROM,THEN LET IT BE KNOWN.
SO I'LL KNOW THAT I'M NOT THE ONLY ONE OUT HERE IN THIS GREAT BIG WORLD THAT FEEL'S SAD & ALONE.
THERE'S TWO SIDES TO EVERY INDIVIDUAL,I CALL IT "CONFLICTING  PERSONALITIES".
AND ALOT OF PEOPLE THAT KNOW ME SURE HAVE GOTTEN TO SEE THAT OF ME.
I BEEN THINKING AND DOING WRONG FOR SO DAMN LONG.
THAT I'M TRYING SO DAMN HARD TO DO JUST RIGHT,TO BE STRONG.
I ALWAY'S BELIEVED DEEP IN MY HEART THAT I COULD DO WHATEVER I WANTED,THAT NO OBSTACLE WAS BIG ENOUGH TO STOP ME FROM ACHIEVING MY GOALS.
THEN I ALLOWED MYSELF TO BECOME A FOLLOWER NOT A LEADER,DOING EVIL & WICKED DEED'S,TO BE STRAIGHT WITH YOU, I SHUT OFF MY SOUL.
NOTHIN' OR NO ONE WAS GONNA CHANGE MY WAY OF LIFE.
I HAD THE SAME WAY OF THINKING EVEN AFTER I TOOK UP A WIFE.
TEN YEARS OF MARRIAGE, I THOUGHT TO MYSELF WHEN WILL IT END?
TIRED OF LIVING IN A TORN RELATIONSHIP TOO LONG THIS SHIT HAS BEEN.

NOW,THAT PART OF MY LIFE IS OVER AND GONE,I'M DOING WHUT I SHOULDA BEEN DOIN' ALL ALONG.
I'M BEING MENTALLY STRONG DOING MY THING,STRAYING AWAY FROM ALL THAT'S WRONG.
I READ MY BIBLE TO HELP CLEANS MY MIND OF SIN.
SO THOSE THAT KNOW OF ME.
KNOW I GOTTA LOTTA LOVE INSIDE OF ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!