It is not worth judging by others, but I will do it anyway.

She is everything they want
everything I am not,
Watching her perform
I know I measure short,
My eyes go red and they go green
it is not her fault, it is only me,
I tried to copy, tried to mask-
but my eyes broke through any chance of hope,
They did not see her, no part at all,
it is me that you see, my insecurities,
There is a scent to them, a tell tale sign
that I will never match, nor best
Her majesty, my enemy.

Ah, and what about her?
The first, the blessed,
courage beyond which lives in me,
I am weak and she is not.
She has the crown, the kingdom and court
I will remain the jester and hidden consort,
no real role and out of place.
This one I love, which can only break my heart
I do not wish to conquer-
I will not be a copy-
I just want for her to love me,
give me her unconditional support,
please don't judge me for a am kin.

I use them as a guide,
to see how I must be
and I fail miserably
for they always better me...
I wish people could just see beyond
and know that words are only half
there is so much more to me!
I would swear that to every god,
Fight and burn, heal to fight
I must keep trying to be good enough.
Above it all my goal is set,
forgive me my trips and falls
I am imperfect, I know it more than you
But I will learn to love myself
I ask you do the same.