i'm here now but? - acrostic

 
i.. in a corner.. cowering.. rocking..rocking.. rocking in the dark..   
'..    
m..my life flashes.. flashed.. victim to a spark..  
   
        
h..hiding from the maker.. the maker of my mark ..    
e..ever.. never ready.. for this trip to embark..    
r..released my mind.. left my body in park..    
e..eternal.. illusions delusions.. haunting this lark..    
   
   
n..neurotic.. voices.. voices screaming.. must hark..    
o..opiates visions.. run me around and round.. round this arc..    
w..wandering.. drifting.. endlessly.. my brain now stark..    
   
b..bending.. bleeding.. lines of sanity.. vapors demark..    
u..unabated.. unintended.. delusions'.. time to disembark..    
t.. twisting.. reaching.. longing for reality.. i cower.. i rock.. i rock.. unable to remark..    
?..