what happened

what happened to the world I loved?
where did it go, where does it hide?
did it run from the abuse as should I?
did it die when they left me in that hospital for months?
is it scared of me now with these ugly marks covering my body?
what happened to the colors that I used to see?
they made everything beautiful with scenery so serene
are the tired like me, sleeping until a better day?
are they bleeding til they turn grey as I do..?
what happened to make everything this way..
what happened to me..?