Broken

Here I am.
Broken.
Tears barely escaping my eyes
Thought you were different.
Thought you were real.
You were different.
You were worse.
You swept in like a fire storm
And knocked me off my feet
Flipped me over backwards.
And I thought you caught me as I fell.
But you didn't.
You said you would.
You swore it. You promised.
Said you'd never let me get hurt.
And here I am.
Broken. Again.
A hundred promises.
A hundred hopes and lies.
I thought I was in your arms
I swear I was just a second ago.
But its like someone swiped the chair out from under me
And here I am on the ground.
Alone.
Where are you?
I can't even find you.
I can't even get a response.
Why? Didn't I mean more?
I thought I meant more.
You made me feel like I did.
You'd say you would be there.
And there you were.
But then just one day it started change
And in a matter of days..
I'm reaching.. I'm falling
But you're not even there.
Not even a whisp, not even a bit of fabric
to cling on to so I don't slip.
You message me out of a dead sleep and ended it
Just like that.
How could you?!
I told myself, I didn't care!
Why should I? I'm stronger than that!
I told myself that!
But as time passes.. I break a little more
And no response. no message. not one word.
What happened?
I noticed it early.
I started to get so wrapped up in you.
I was going to leave you alone then, I was.
You know why? Because I didn't want to feel this.
But I thought I deserved a shot at real happiness in a relationship..
So I stepped out from my comfort zone..
And we held eachother and did so great.
But then..
here I am again.

Broken.


Why?