Mind Trashed

My mind..
  My heart...
             My body...
Is fucked...
wrecked...
 Destroyed...
Why?
I don't really know why...?
I just..
     a wreck..
When I thought I was all good....
 I really wasn't...
     Am not..
Im as bad as I was before I even allowed her in my life..
Tired..
Worn out as hell..
Empty even when I thought I was at peace and serenity with my
well....existence..
She knew when I was in pain..
But never cared enough to show that she truly fuckin cared..
How the fuck do you think that made me feel..
You don't know..
Ill tell you..
Like.............
           I should have been dead asa headstone before I even met ur slutty ass excuse for uh life long love..