shit faced

Your death is a drug that
purposelyy
avoids immunity....

I feel the weight of it
every second
of every day

from the shear blunt
unstable moments
I forget my name
and give into our shame

It's all yoir fault
you abandoned me
like every single fucking person I've loved
that lived dope more than life

In your last minutess that held coherency
you said
I'm sorry for everything

I still haven't forgiven you
the same way
god hasn't forgotten
yet you prayed to it
like faith strangled by a reaper
was justifiable
because of your fear

I'm a wreck
listening to strictly instrumental
fifty nucks worth off meth
and a case of dirty thirty
to catch me

I learned how to tolerate come downs
from the best

It's all my fault
IAm the way I am
because of my choices
but I blame you
because Imm a selfish cunt
and I don't care about anything
tonight












nothing other than scoring
more than I already have