same as it never was

 
never been beyond this
and would fail in tremendous cheer
if i could afford some liquor
 
pride comes before the fall
and this is well after
but it is not a noble or humble
that keeps me from lashing out
smash grab gimme then route
nor is it the complacency of depression
 
i would see the fucker in the ring tonight
if it had a face to show
and i am ready for the big weigh-in  
but i am one of so very little faith  
 
despite my sermon on the mount  
expounding the prophecy of psychedelia  
spouting off about the end always starting here
and how quantum physics is the cosmic messiah
calling the weak of commitment disciples
and naming every one of them Thomas
telling them to doubt and to touch wounds
 
despite my making wounds to touch
the unbearable density of separation
slips into being hotter than plasma
and expands
 
eventually it will cool  
slow to the particles that make stuff
 
eventually it will crystallize
 
eventually it will