Devil's Drug

Bowl after bowl I smoke,
Sad to say, but this is no joke,
For stoned is the way of the walk,
Or at least that is what's all the talk,
This is how I deal with it all,
This is not my only downfall,
There is a particular drug that is my favorite by far,
This drug attempts to try to keep you up to par,
This drug is my savior, or so I would make myself believe,
Unfortunately it only leads to lies that will eventually deceive,
The name for this life drainer is no other than meth, like this is some big surprise,
I swear that it is the Devil, for it will take everything  before you will even have a chance to realize,
It will destroy families, relationships, marriages, careers, it takes away your whole being,
I try to hide it, I try hard to not be seen,
I could tell you stories that would scare you,
My mind so scattered, some days I don't even have the slightest clue,
Do not get me wrong, I do see the errors in my ways,
And I will be the first one to stand up and say,
That I have made a terrible mess of myself as well as others,
It is sad to say that I cannot even count on my own mother,
I so wish that i did not have this horrible disease, I wish it would just go away,
So that I could get my children back and be able to sit back and watch them play,
Please help take this all away, so this lifestyle I no longer have to experience,
Clear my scattered mind so things will finally start to make sense,
God, please make the longing and urges that my body begins to feel,
Take it all away and let my tired body begin to heal,
So that I can once again find real work to provide shelter and a decent meal,
Better yet, take this poison away from me so that I can finally lay down and sleep,
Some nights I lay there thinking that the Devil is working overtime trying to capture my soul and keep,
I will find the strength to fight this off, I will not break,
For I need to stop being so selfish and I need to do this for my children's sake!

Heather Llewellyn