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My Rock
Here again, for the third time, trying to break down the thoughts in my mind. Sober as a rock, but stuck underneath, where the mold and the maggots climb. Nothing to do but clean it up, takes too much time, I am impatient, with too much love on my mind.
I feel I'd do anything for you, but my mind has been way too blue, seaking out puzzle bits, while sorting out all my other shit. I've made a mess of things.. I know, as I kept digging below. Which brings me to this rock. This dirty ass rock. I'd like to throw it as far as I could, but it's too heavy right now, and way too cold. It's like sticking your tounge to a frozen pole. All I do is day to day. I live, just not my way.
Every morning is actual mourning. So every day, I feel so far away. My own soul, disconnected, broken, detatched, I know it's early.. but how long will this last? Maybe I should learn to prolong... wait G'nR' already did this song, explaining all this bit. Maybe I should listen to that hit.......
Patience and sticking to my word is my only hope, the only way I'll be able to cope. I hope someday you will forgive and trust me again. That moment will be my day of zen.
I cannot explain why I did this to us, it was stupidity, and made you mistrust, I understand because of this rock. Hopefully when you're ready you will help me lift it up, throw it so far, your trust will unlock. Until then I just need to express how much you mean to me, no BS, just honesty. I can't say sorry anymore, because I destroyed that to the core.
I love you Crystal.
I've got no more.
I feel I'd do anything for you, but my mind has been way too blue, seaking out puzzle bits, while sorting out all my other shit. I've made a mess of things.. I know, as I kept digging below. Which brings me to this rock. This dirty ass rock. I'd like to throw it as far as I could, but it's too heavy right now, and way too cold. It's like sticking your tounge to a frozen pole. All I do is day to day. I live, just not my way.
Every morning is actual mourning. So every day, I feel so far away. My own soul, disconnected, broken, detatched, I know it's early.. but how long will this last? Maybe I should learn to prolong... wait G'nR' already did this song, explaining all this bit. Maybe I should listen to that hit.......
Patience and sticking to my word is my only hope, the only way I'll be able to cope. I hope someday you will forgive and trust me again. That moment will be my day of zen.
I cannot explain why I did this to us, it was stupidity, and made you mistrust, I understand because of this rock. Hopefully when you're ready you will help me lift it up, throw it so far, your trust will unlock. Until then I just need to express how much you mean to me, no BS, just honesty. I can't say sorry anymore, because I destroyed that to the core.
I love you Crystal.
I've got no more.
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