Into a Nightmare

It's mystifying the way my dreams are better
these eyes are only clear when I'm fast asleep
I wish I could explain it all in a letter
but there's just too much pain to express
and still you know me best

You understand that I'm waking up into a nightmare
no one else would hear my cry for help
they think I've got it held all together
You know i'm not alright, when I rest my head on your shoulder
hold me a little closer, and make me feel safe
'cause I don't know, how many more smiles I can fake
I just want to, be free but, I don't know where to go
I close my eyes and hope I never have to open them again
trying my best to be okay, but please don't expect me to pretend I'm not waking into a nightmare!

It's on my mind, the way the night is kinder
this heart can only mend when I'm lost in dreams
I wish I could get my wings and rise up higher
but there's still too much hurt to digress
and still you know the rest

You understand that I'm waking up into a nightmare
no one else would hear my cry for help
they think I've got it held all together
You know i'm not alright, when I rest my head on your shoulder
hold me a little closer, and make me feel safe
'cause I don't know, how many more smiles I can fake
I just want to, be free but, I don't know where to go
I close my eyes and hope I never have to open them again
trying my best to be okay, but please don't expect me to pretend I'm not waking into a nightmare!

In my head I fly, away from this world into a better place
but every night I cry, suffocating from the memories
and I'm so darn tired, of fighting every day
I just want to fall asleep into my beautiful dreams
but if I do, I know I'll lose them too...
when I open my eyes and step into a nightmare.