it kills me

it  kills me to know how much i really love you
i can't.
you hurt me one to many times before
so why do i want you so .
you call me names treat me liike trash
amd you dare tell me "I love you"
after all this sorrow and pain you caused
you love me.....
you don't want me to go and yet you wish i was dead.
go head scream i've heard it so many times before
i need not care anymore
you can breal down my door
hit,scream but i never go back
the voice in my head will not lead me back
to your cruel love...
I shouldn't and i wont because
I know I am  not yours..........