Shredded Yesterdays

Bury me deep below the surface of what's real
use up all my love until I cannot feel
I don't want to live this way
hanging onto the things they claim
paper cuts bleeding out lies and blame
trying to tape it all together
but the meaning has been lost
and I can't find all the pieces

Growing numb
from the loss of feeling in my arms
reaching out so long to no avail,
I know a mishap's not a failure
until I let it win
but I can't wish it away, not this time
Future come
'cause I'm done with all the waiting
trying but barely concentrating
on the good in life lately
letting go doesn't come so easily
and hurts about as much as holding on
to shredded yesterdays

everyone says that I'll be fine
after a while and all in due time
but the cracks in the levi are spreading
underwater is where I'll soon be drowning
holes in the story running back to haunt me
like a ghost of what used to be
tried to erase the past and tear it out of my deceivingly clear memory
but it all comes flooding in

Growing numb
from the loss of feeling in my arms
reaching out so long to no avail,
I know a mishap's not a failure
until I let it win
but I can't wish it away, not this time
Future come
'cause I'm done with all the waiting
trying but barely concentrating
on the good in life lately
letting go doesn't come so easily
and hurts about as much as holding on
to shredded yesterdays

there's a staple in my heart
misplaced and stinging like a dart
thought it would close up the wounds
but it just left a bigger bruise
than the shredded yesterdays