Why now and not then

Chills roll down her spine
Her feet tingle, her palms are sweaty
Her stomach filled with uncontrollable butterflies
She feels weak
As he whispers in her ear
And kisses down her neck
Intimate movements
He slowly holds her. And pulls her close
He slits her neck, with a sudden gasp
She feels the warm blood run down her neck
Over her soft skin
He looks her in the eye
Her body falls to the ground
Barely breathing, she looks at him
Suddenly, she sees everything she ever dreamed of
Flash backs of the day they met,
The first time they kissed
The first time they made love
She thinks to her self
'Why now, and not then?'
She thinks back to when the faught
Why didn't he end her life before?
Was he weak? No, things changed
He let her drift away
She started not to care
She started to not worry.
If he can't have her, no one will