Courage

I prayed you wouldn't go
with anyone else but me that weekend,
I know you went anyway

Certain your comrade
was a surrogate
during our reserved weekend,
I could no longer look at what used to be

When you returned from that weekend,
I heard you describe
the exquisite skin you had for your pleasure.
Those were the last words I drank.

Each word burned my throat
and pierced my heart
I no longer wanted to witness
the lyrics you composed for the back-up

Refusing to be drunk
in love anymore,
I made all necessary changes
So that I no longer see you and yearn

Refusing to keep my soul in chains,
It was essential to use strength,
break the chains and let go
set myself free in a way I never predicted

Had to take my mistakes,
learn and carry on

You will never know how much I loved you
but maybe you will remember me
when the water seduces and invites you, or
when the sun kisses and caresses you.
You will remember all our fun and adventure

Your strength and wisdom
encouraged me to look within and discover
I can create my own certainty
Come out on the other side unafraid

I wish you well.