Worst Nightmare

I'm terrified and fearful I don't wanna sleep. I try and try but eventually I fail. The darkness consumes me and swallows me whole. I wake up knowing I'm fake but knowing that I'm me. I see her beautiful face, her mouth is taped and her sobs are unnoticed. She's tied and bound but I'm laughing and enjoying her tears tasting the life and fear inside of her. Whenever I approach her she cries uncontrollably and starts to speak but her words are muffled and I don't really care what she has to say. I kneel and draw out my knife admiring the look of terror this poor girl feels and what she is about to feel. I start to skim the knife over her fair skin and she tries to fight me so I slap her hard in the face and she stops squirming. "Don't worry about your life" I tell her laughing in her face, "it'll be over soon." She looks at me her hope of me letting her live all gone now only replaced by the curiosity of what I will do to her. I'm disgusted just by looking at her though, she lies and kills people with words and in my twisted mind I rationalize me killing knowing fully that no one deserves what I'm about to do. I start to cut her arms deep enough to hurt her but not enough to kill her. I start to lick the knife clean wanting a clear cut and by this sight she starts to sob hysterically. I proceed to cut her fingers off one by one and her toes one by one  and I get lost in the moment. I start to stab her uncontrollably and blood fills my vision but I still continue. Once I'm done I look at her body now just a bloody mess I laugh in my mind but I soon realize there are tears on my face. I have woken up.