This feeling

Theres this feeling
This feeling that i have
This feeling I have thats hard to explain or control
But when that feeling come
I let myself drift with that flow
I am a slave
I could say that
Cause that feeling awful strong
Its when I crave
That I lose
But realy, its that I choose
Daily troubles is what helps that feeling come
its conflict within that builds
but always seems to win
That shit that you know is bad
but a hard head dont understand
untill shit hits the fan
you find yourself sitting and wreckage at hand
control of your mind  
With shit you dont do
but its all a matter of time
you thinking your fine
Ha you not, im telling the truth
hear when I say it
Better yet record it and play it
its this feeling
this feeling where I evoled to  an addict
trying to stay sane
supporting my hundred dollar day habit
You dont think I gone threw this much
But why would you
im the one not giving a fuck
People are there then they are not
I reminise on the days
when trust wasnt lost
Look at me now
ha man fuck it im here
still numbing the tears
Life on the fast lane and self I am kiling
ill say it once more it was caused by that feeling

Ovadose
02/3/14