Numb

I drink myself to sleep,
I lay on the floor in a heap
I cry tears of guilt and shame
I hear the devil call my name
Into hell I plunge burning
While my stomach is sick and churning
Its war, the way of the human kind
And my biggest foe is my mind
Can’t escape from myself
Don’t fuck with me or else
Who can I blame,
That beauty is a shallow vein
To let it out would be so easy
And to let it flow would make me sleazy
Don’t let it go
Don’t let me know
Cuz this info is getting to my head
It’s driving me crazy going over things we said
No satisfaction from this constant yearning
So still, I feel the world turning
Cigarette breath and a nasty test
As I stare at the mirror it’s laughing back
Deceiving ability is not what I lack
Am I useless, because my world is truthless?
Hatred that runs deep to the heart
The centre of all things, the beginning, the start