the curse of being a Juarez

Juarez por vida.... spanish for juarez for life but theres a curse to that saying, i can not love is what my family says if i do i fall apart and just break and put my name to shame. give me a new name a new life an new everything. i have every right to love doesnt everyone have the right? i mean life is so hard as it is but why even try to live life when all you want to do is end it? good question. thats one of the perks of being a juarez. juarez is many things its a city, a DRUG cartel, a ritual, and a curse. i guess i changed that though... i've been living life, i have a purpose but what stinks is that the lonliness in my life has been there forever but not anymore its all changed i have been saving peoples lives with my music and my wisdom i am dedicated to making people happy and smile i hope this one makes you smile cause all of the blood shed is done the blood is cleaned up and no more tears will fall i am my own down fall and i may have lost it all, but i havnt lost her and i never will. i am a juarez and i have put my name out of shame and place it in honor. i can love i can care i can cry...and this is my good bye
                             i am jacob ramon vladimir juarez.