Hide Myself

Good God,
Why'd life come to this?
My little happy world,
Ripped away from all its bliss

Poor M,
Though I won't name any names
It seems her life sucks like mine,
Our hope and love going down in flames

I don't know about her,
But I like the heat
She just likes the cold,
Makes me feel incomplete

And C,
God she's so fucking fun
But I feel like she's losing it silently,
Seems like she's about to be done

And that girl I told you about before,
Though I don't know her real name
She's just so loose,
But I know that's just a game

The insanity that surrounds us four,
It's enough to choke out my last breath
Looking at the knife I hide with my money,
Fearing I'm close to death

God Almighty,
I finally did it!
Look at the little scars on my wrist,
All of them like neat little slits

And even realizing,
My mother and brother could see this at any second,
See their faces turned in disgust at my life,
They don't know anything about me I reckon

I wish I had the guts to end it,
But that's be a mistake
I think life would get better if I were gone,
Even though the thought makes my heart ache

All this shit,
Doesn't matter to you all
But people commonly hide what 'ails' them,
Never answering anyone's call

We all fall into depression silently,
No one everyone figuring it out
Everybody's has some kind of problems,
Their life one big bout

I don't get why they can't hurt themselves,
Maybe they don't think that way
Life isn't bad enough for them to resort to that,
It all falls down to the Frey

Too bad God doesn't pay attention to me,
It'd really help
My friends and family don't know,
Even if I yelp

I still think about death,
Its cold cruel claws
I'll find out one day,
Carrying all my flaws

And God'll judge me,
No not as he child but friend
And maybe then I'll be happy,
Finally able to mend

The scars Dad's death left,
The scars of leaving home still leave
Don't think I'll ever get over it,
Until the day of Death's eve