The end of purity

The smile was wiped
Clean off my face.
It's been replaced by frowns,
And I feel so disgraced.
I've lost the best thing
To come into my life.
I can't even stand,
Too much of a fight.
Everyone asks, what is hurting me so?
They can all see,
That I've been miserable.
I ask calmly for them to stay clear,
But they force and insist,
To be close, to be near.
Now I scream and I plea,
For them to stay far.
Now they listen,
And alone,
I pour out my heart...

"Fuck him
Fuck this
I'm totally done.
How can I live,
When she's totally gone?
I fear nothing now."

Though this was a lie,
I can't help,
How I'm feeling inside.
I say what I don't mean,
And mean what I don't.
I've set up my gallows,
And hoist up my throat.
I'm nothing anymore.
I jump, I dangle, it snaps
And I hit the floor.
I was lost in a darkness
Ever so sweet,
But then I came to,
And again started to breathe.
I was wrapped in deaths arms,
And for once I was pleased.
That's when I realized...
Without you, there's no me...