Chained Heart

The love I try to gain from you is massive
I'm not sure it's worth the thousands of tears I shed for it
The slashes and burns on my wrists
All the broken razors lined up on my desk 

I see all these couples happy & destined to be
Holding hands
Sharing kisses
Dancing free 

When will it be my turn?
To feel the happiness
Attempt to feel loved
The emotions are endless 

Look into my eyes
Do u see my pain?
The chains tied to my beating organ
Only you have the key to release me 

If I made an attempt to count the days
I've wandered aimlessly
Or crawled in bed just to cry
I'd die before I'd finish 

The days I've spent looking at the phone
Or just staring at old msgs
Looking back on my calender
The small words that meant so much 

All the flash backs 
All the memories
All the messages
Bringing back the pain.