Sick

Sick
 
I’m sick of being pushed
I’m sick of feeling old,
I’m sick of being broke
I’m sick of dreaming gold,
 
I’m sick of wasting time,
I’m sick of feeling free,
I’m sick of saying “fine”
When asked how things have been,
 
I’m sick of missing stuff,
Like when you’re not around,
I’m sick of getting hot,
I’m sick of us apart,
 
I’m sick of being nice
To people I don’t like,
I’m sick of saying “hi”
And sick to hear it back,
 
I’m sick of drinking piss,
I’m sick of pissing blood,
I’m sick of eating shit
And sick of crapping hard,
 
I’m sick of being taxed,
I’m sick of the outside,
I’m sick of being told
“Get on with it. That’s life.”
 
I’m sick of losing hair,
I’m sick of rhyming words,
I’m sick of thinking fair,
I’m sick of rules and laws;
 
I’m sick of watching “Friends”,
I’m sick of paying rent,
I’m sick of playing games
To make myself forget;
 
I’m sick of calling home,
I’m sick of getting bored,
I’m sick of lying cold
Each time I’m with a girl;
 
I’m sick of waking up,
I’m sick of making jokes,
I’m sick of making love
Next door to both your folks;
 
 
 
I’m sick of being last,
I’m sick of being rude,
I’m sick of working hard
When other barely move;
 
I’m sick of young men laugh,
I’m sick of women scream
When fat men fill their eyes
With promises of cream;
 
I’m sick of this routine,
I’m sick of standing still,
I’m sick of this machine
Inside of me that breaths;
 
I’m sick because I feel,
I’m sick because I’m small,
I’m sick because I’m weak,
I’m sick of me alone;
 
I’m sick of being rushed,
I’m sick of being fooled,
I’m sick of being told
I’ve wasted all my youth.
 
 
 
I’m sick of having faith,
I’m sick of trusting things
Would happen if I wait,
I’m sick of waiting years...
 
I’m sick of looking smart,
I’m sick of wearing gel,
I’m sick of posing bad
When I’m all soft and stale;
 
I’m sick of feeling down,
I’m sick of blaming dad
For being on my own...
I’m sick of doing that;
 
I’m sick of you in bed,
I’m sick of lazy thrills,
I’m sick of being scared
To drive as if it kills;
 
I’m sick of getting sacked,
I’m sick with how I live,
I’m sick of this and that,
I’m sick of being me.