Residual Human

It sits in my stomach like lead
The fear, self loathing and dread
Today I would rather be dead
I can't stop the thoughts in my head

It's like a current inside of me
The rage eating away constantly
I have no filter to save me
My interest decreases daily

Screaming inside, full of ready lies
Nothing but pain rotting behind my eyes
Screaming inside, nobody hears those cries
I'm lost and broken, nowhere to hide

Like a tribute to mourning unread
All of these feelings I'm fed
A current of lies in my stead
All of these things left unsaid

How can I let myself down quietly?
The silence breaks the core of me
A tattered remnant of who I used to be
This shadowy monster clawing free

Screaming inside, head full of lies
Nothing but darkness within my eyes
Screaming inside, hoarse with cries
I'm lost and broken, nothing to hide