RESTRAINTS

stepping out in uncharted waters
outside of my comfort zone
guarding my heart
learning to let go of past hurts
past broken promises
and past baggage
you seem like someone from above
smiling and giggling not at all what i do
but talking to you and thinking of you
i find myself doing these very things
glowing again like never before
but in the back of my mind
i feel as if the worst is about to happen
i ask myself
am i the problem
the person who's to messed up to be truly happy
can i not trust again
am i to caught up in this box of torture
that i've condemed myself to
wanting to love and accept the love
that is so here
so now
so right
but oh so very fare away
stuck in the restraints iv'e created for myself
screaming and to ashamed to come out