Sacrifices

Feeling worthless and devalued .
All my life I have been lied too.
Love walked in and out of my life like revolving doors.
Abandoned by the only person that loved me with no apology.
But that too was a lie and my heart was scarred .
Tattered and torn.


Past memories of a better life plays slowly in my head.
Yet like a cedar tree I stand strong with my boughs and branches stretched to the sky .
Pinching myself to see if I still exist and breathing .
Life feels like a whirlwind
Winds blow with no mercy destroying everything in it's part .
With no mercy .
In my womb there is evidence of life
Fearing the future of the unknown of powers and  forces that may weigh me down.


Heaviness on my shoulders .
Enduring the pains of  life .
Dark clouds over my head like a thick mist of smoke .
Sucking the life out of me repeatedly.
Slowly entering  the room to do the unthinkable and the unimaginable.
Selfishness takes over me as I lay on the table of sacrifice ready for the slaughter .
A sacrificial lamb lifeless and hopeless.
Two blue pills in a cup to help all the worries disappear.
While the nurse rubs my hand comforting me and wiping away my tears.



Visions of beauty and  a better life flash before my face like lightening bolts making way for the rain.
I love the life inside me more than I love myself .
Darting out of the room like a deer escaping captivity .
The tiny life was spared.
Restoration and salvation is sweet to the soul .
Jovial spirits lifted high ,praises caught between the heavens and earth.
Shooting for the stars not,remembering the evil past.


Dark shadows disappear .
Grey clouds bursting with rain .
Voices disappear from within.
My perception of life is anew .
Manifesting the miracles of the Gods.
Numb to all the bulls**t in my life
My body is now renewed .
Motherhood takes me to higher heights .
Maturity and womanhood needs nurturing like a seedling sprouting it's first roots.
Little feet and tiny fingers have taken a hold of me .
A tiny life and precious heart changed me from within.
New beginnings in my life have made me whole .
All bad memories are cast into the ocean of forgetfulness never to be remembered again.