Sea of Despair

I felt as if I was floating,
Submerged deep within the sea.
I could see the light above me,
But wasn't sure if I wanted to leave.
I could feel the weight of the water,
Could feel it pushing me deeper.
But part of me enjoyed the pressure,
And wanted to just sink down further.
I could feel the seas ice cold hands,
The current pulling me away.
I knew I should try to swim,
But part if me didn't want to escape.
I laid there, feeling as if I were drowning.
And wasn't sure what I really wanted.
I knew I should wish for rescue,
But wanted to stay down in the deep...
Where no pain could ever reach me.