depression through my eyes

Here's a common fight that I struggle day to day,
A story of sad depression that's impossible to push away,  
It creeps into the mind slowly poisons your very heart,
takes your strength to go to others and that's just the start,
Stress without a reason so anxious and very lowe,
The one who you want there is the heart you cannot go,
Confused with your own sadness has no one's done a wrong,
Scared because your lonely and them you want seem gone,
Can't have no one that worries just in case they see,
There problems are worse than mine so I'll just pretend to be me,
*Here's a common fight that I struggle day to day,
A story of sad depression thats impossible to push away,  
My self esteem has gone and now most confidence too,
Slowly losing the fight I don't think I could ever get through,
Feel un comfort in others presence because of the way I feel,
Just sit with this ticking mind only wishing life wasn't real,
slumping deeper down in depression worry and fear,
The mind wants me all alone but the heart wants loved ones near,
Slowly I am pushed to the edge were I sit in pain,
Give back my family please  I don't want them to look at me in shame,
No matter were I am I shall forever be alone,
Don't even feel no comfort that I should when I'm at home,
Self taught to hide such feelings drown no one else in all my sorrow,
I no if its so bad I could end it all tomorrow,
Depression is an illness strong to send us all insane,
I was once so happy but now living a secret pain,
I'm a sister but still I struggle to race and give impression,
the daughter yet to beet and win the fight with depression.........