Heartache and Anquish

Heart break and aquish, seems as though I can never detain this.
Everytime I set myself up for defeat and it seems like I can disasters all I meet.
Allways slippin around, allways fallin to the ground.
Seems though as soon as I stand I set myself up to be that man
that only knows failure and never can win and it all come crashing down in the end.
Can't trust no one hard me too have fun.
Dont know how to express myself all I do is depress my self.
Heart broken so many times breaking a heart should be consider a crime.
No child should be taken from his family, in out of different homes cause none of them can handle me.
Now its hard for me to love, hard me to stay cause I just end up pushing myself away.
Don't want to be hurt no more but it just seems like its a revolving door.
It will never stay shut, so im just stuck in this rut.
Can't seem to get out, I question love and start to doubt.
Im sick inside and I just push people away and try to hide.
I want except love cause when I did everyone just gave me a shove
right out there door saying they don't want me know more.
Im tired of the heart ache and pain, it's like Im always stuck in the rain.
Is this the man im coming to, a man that wont push through.
A man thats all ways on the run won't stop to enjoy the fun.
Afraid everyone around him cause everyones letting down him.
It's like something I can't break always experiencing heartache.
When it comes to love I hesitate and in the end just detonate.
Cause I'm filled with heartache and anguish and just can't detain this.