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they will rip out of their world just to tear into your hologram projection reality cuz there IS no "out there" out there • and im afraid i must regretfully inform you that any acts of resistance is futile • but patterns do repeat and patterns do repeat but patterns leave you incomplete and in tatters battered by defeat • even though you radiate your positive energy it ain't no dynamo yo it aint comin back ten-fold • and all the while you wonder what is this thats pulling part of you this way and another part of you that way etc but they are all you they are all you they are all parts of your personality essence being being forced to consume itself as a last ditch drastik effort to once again experience the experience of experiencing itself just for the sake of the experience because tried and true efforts have left you breathless and defensive and if we could just take a minute and put emphasis on that suggested defensive definition in the hopes it will encourage apprehensiveness in the future even at the risk of coming off offensive it might be somewhat of a blessing depending on remnants of remaining capacities • im failing to grasp certain things and i hate complaining about things but me me me me is too damn much and now i see these things as products of screwed up luck • theres a few fucked up drumbeats to travel to and i myself can attest to a few but oh will we ever truly get a clue cuz i dont see it happening anytime soon i dont so i focus on my internal drum and make it beat • i chose this infernal slum over a few good nights sleep •