memories

missing the loved ones.
wishing I was there
knowing that I wasn't
she died of old age
maybe a fall

remembering all
the flower power cookies
the operas
the late night talks
the crazy squirrels
finding the long lost family
now you are gone and I regret it
have a good night was all I said
I wish that I had spent more time
but I cant go back now
I never will be able to
but how I wish that my lover
my dearest one I wish that you could come
support me at the wake
and to the funeral
but my family wont allow it at all